Day 8: I’m not fixed yet

I think I’m at the point now where it’s going to get really hard.  This is the time in previous endeavors where I would normally think, “I got this, I don’t need to strictly finish all 30 days, I understand and have demonstrated that I can implement the concepts, so that little sugar cookie over there won’t hurt me”.

I’m starting to understand that this is the point where the work really begins.  The first week I’m coasting on adreneline and the ‘newnesss’ of the program.  Because of that, it’s not as hard to face down some of the demons I really need to address during this program.  Like, craving sugar.  Or, eating for emotional reasons.  (those are kind of the same thing)

To be fair, my diet pre-Whole30 wasn’t horrible.  I eat well, compared to the average Joe (and even perhaps the average triathlete).  I don’t need to do Whole30 for health reasons, because I’m healthy.  I need to do this program because I have some bad habits that I need to understand and manage more effectively.  If I emerge on the flip side with an understanding of what’s going on in my brain when I crave sugar or goodies and how to manage it, then these 30 days will have been a success.  The answer to that question, at least the way I’m thinking now, is that I need to stay focused on what I’m trying to accomplish over the long-term and be able to weigh the value of the short-term (the cookie) versus the long-term reward (kick ass triathlete).  While the impact of the individual sugar cookie, physically speaking, is minimal, the real impact is that it enables the crutch I’ve become used to and dependant on, and that overall is holding me back. The commitment of the 30 days helps me focus. It’s short, digestible. I’ll worry about what comes after, later.

I’m going to re-do some of the meals I’ve been having.  I think I need to focus less on carbs and veggies and more on healthy fats.  I should be able to go between meals without snacking, and that’s not happening yet.  I’m going to start eating avocados like nobody’s business, in hopes that helps.  I should probably eat more seafood, too.

Workout: 9 am, 2 hard boiled eggs pre-run (hungry from the early dinner last night!), 45′ run, 1/2 sweet potato wrapped in two slices of turkey post-run.

Breakfast:  11 am, 3 eggs scrambled in 1 tsp ghee (probably could have used more) with spinach, pulled pork, 1/2 avocado.  I’m breaking the mold!

Did a bunch of shopping after breakfast.  A miracle happened at Kohls.  I had to return some stuff I bought for my boyfriend, so I was anticipating waiting in line for about 20 minutes, and then not having a smooth return process (even though I had the receipts).  It was the exact opposite!  No line, so I went right to the counter, and the whole thing took less than three minutes.  It took longer to park and walk in than it did to return the stuff.  Win.

I had an apple on my way back from Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods, and my stomach started to get a little upset.  I’m not sure why.  I’m wondering if it’s because I had more fat and not enough carbs after my run?  I’m secretly wondering if it was the pork.  Anyway, I didn’t get hungry until about 3:30.  I wonder if that was also because I had more fat with breakfast than I normally do?

Lunch: 4pm, last of the cauliflower soup with green onions and pulled pork.  The soup is gone, at last, at last!  Good thing because I have some minestone going in the crockpot now. 🙂

Dinner: 7:30, leftover meatballs
Nothing exciting, almost done with the leftover meatballs. Maybe I’ll finish them tomorrow for breakfast.

I’ve been watching The New Girl on Netflix for the past few days. I’m addicted. I’m halfway through season 2. I love finding new shows to watch. It’s so much more fun to binge watch instead of hanging through week after week.

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