Day 10: Vindication

OMG, I found this post on the Whole30 website and it saved my life.  I feel legitimized, vindicated.  I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  It seems like the things I’m experiencing are completely normal.  Although, I kind of think maybe I had two or three of those phases all wrapped into one over the past few days, but after reading on the forums a bit I learned that’s also normal.  Thank God.

I was really nauseous all day today, not sure why.  I thought at first maybe it was my breakfast (maybe it was time to get rid of the pork), but it continued all day long.  I almost went home from work because I seriously thought I was going to ‘evacuate’ all over my keyboard.  I managed to get down a hard boiled egg and some fruit (pineapple and honeydew) and a few cashews, but that was it.  I had a headache all night before and on my way into work, so I took my tension headache meds when I got in the office.  I think maybe they were a bit too strong because the nausea became really intense after that.  I’ve never had that type of reaction to those before, but I’m guessing maybe it was because my gut lining is different (more sensitive) now, since it’s not coated with lots of crapola?  The nausea finally started to subside around 3, so I had some ginger tea then, which also helped.  I was also in a bad mood all day, hopefully because I felt bad (I don’t think I’m generally that much of a meanie, but I was definitely not happy yesterday).

I’m wondering if I’m getting these headaches and other body aliments because of stress (holiday shopping = poor Jess = stress).  I have never been one of those people who experience ‘body issues’ because of stress – my appetite is always good (of course!), I sleep ok, I don’t get nauseous.  Maybe, in addition to the other host of ‘cleansing’ symptoms I’m experiencing, this is one of them?  Body responses to stress?  I’m writing this post the day after Day 10, and while I still have a slight headache and I can tell my tummy is a bit off, it’s not as bad as it was.

It could also be coffee.  I will die if it’s coffee.  I’ve been drinking Trader Joe’s Winter Blend and absolutely love it.  It’s a bit darker of a roast than I normally drink, and with my increased stomach sensativity…could be it.  (yes, I have my coconut milk in it instead of regular creamer!).  My absolute favorite thing to do is get up early with a cup of coffee and work/browse on the computer.  If Whole30 is taking that away from me…we’re going to have issues.

I successfully made my blondie bars last night and only had one quick taste (to make sure they came out ok!).  SUCCESS!!  I find that brushing my teeth after dinner helps me not crave sweets.  An old diet trick, but it’s working for me now.

Breakfast: 7 am, 3 eggs with ghee and spinach, zucchini, pulled pork and 1/2 avocado.  That was a big breakfast, which is why I thought it might be the cause of my issues.

Breakfast 12/16

I have to eat breakfast at this time, because I leave for work after, but I’ve noticed over the past couple of days that sometimes I’m just not that hungry then.  I still eat (because that’s what I do!), but ideally, I would wait a bit later to do so.  I’ve tried bringing my breakfast to work before and I think it somewhat annoys people because of the smell, but I might try it again.  The trick is getting to eat sometime between the window of ‘I’m not awake enough to eat’ and ‘holy crap I’m going to eat my passenger seat I’m so hungry’.  There is definitely a sweet spot in there, at least for me.

No lunch, because I felt like if I ate it would not be good for my co-workers.  I did have a hard boiled egg and some pineapple and honey dew between 11-1, but that’s it.  I snacked on some cashews later in the day.

Came home and went to work on my sweet potato salad for our office pot luck tomorrow.  I hope it turns out ok.  I probably should have made something I’ve had before, so I don’t embarrass myself, but I think it will be fine.  Tomorrow is our ‘Food Fest’ where everyone brings a dish (my office supplies the staples, like cutlery, meatballs, a ham).  I think there are going to be 50-60 of us eating all this food, all week long.  I actually don’t think the temptation will be all that bad because, again, people are watching me.

The boyfriend comes in tomorrow, too.  We’re going to do our Christmas thing on Wednesday night because we won’t see each other until right before New Year’s :(.

Dinner: 7:30pm, Mustard glazed chicken thighs, broccoli.  I only had a bit because I wasn’t sure what my tummy would do, so it was a small dinner (no pic, sorry!).  It seemed to settle ok, but time will tell.

Better luck tomorrow!


Day 9: Humpf

I’m not in a good place with eating right now.  I’m actually writing this the day after day 9 because I just couldn’t figure out what I wanted to say about the day, other than it was really hard.  I was so frustrated, tempted, overwhelmed…all those things.  Just not good.  I kept thinking about Christmas and the table of Christmas cookies, the bottles of wine, the meals out with family…all that stuff.  I was thinking about why is it really necessary to give up all that stuff, so long as I eat healthy the rest of the time?

I kept going back and forth between that logic, which I truly do believe.  I’m not a believer in total restriction, which I know is contrary to Whole30.  I believe you can enjoy treats, but in moderation, because you only live once and you want to enjoy it while you’re here.  Then, I would think, NO, NOT ME, I don’t have the tool set to do moderation YET.  I kept telling myself (rationalizing) that’s why I’m doing Whole30, so I can learn the toolset and break my sugar and snack dependencies.  That’s why it’s hard now, because it’s starting to get real.  It’s not new anymore, it’s just hard and tough and real.  I’m trying to remind myself that ‘this is where the progress starts!’, which helps…a little.

It’s going to be a long week.

Breakfast: 9:15 am, 3 eggs scrambled with ghee and spinach, leftover meatballs, 1/2 avocado.  Those red thingys are actually meatballs, even though the picture didn’t really take that well.  I only ate about half of them…I was over the meatballs.

Breakfast 12/15

Lunch:  12:30 pm, Minestrone soup.  This finished up in the crock pot last night around 10:30 (as I was winding down my New Girl marathon), so I put it right in the fridge after getting out (I don’t normally do that, but time wasn’t on my side tonight).  When I looked at it this morning, all the fat had risen to the top and solidified.  I scooped all that out and got rid of it, but kind of funny.

Lunch 12/15

The afternoon…this is when it got really, really hard.  I don’t know why I did this (because I know I’m not strong enough to resist now), but I bought some peanut butter M&Ms to put in my brownies, which I was thinking of bringing in to our work pot-luck holiday lunch this week.  All I kept thinking was that they were in the cupboard.  I went through absolutely everything else – a bunch of trail mix, a Lara Bar (actually…that’s it).  I was kind of hungry, but it was more the ritual I was craving.  It was a serious, entrenched ritual craving.

This is when it happened.  My boo-boo.  I had about 1/4 cup of dark chocolate chips with almond butter.  I know it was against protocol.  I was so overwhelmed (I think that’s the right word), tired from staying up too late, bored…all the things that drive you to self-sabotage.  I literally almost started crying I was so frustrated.  THIS IS FOOD!!  Why is it so complicated?

I’m not going to re-start my Whole30 (omg, I cannot handle that right now) because I think, in the deep, dark, barely visible,  rationale part of my brain, that I’m right where I need to be.  That’s why it’s so hard now, because I’m getting out of my comfort zone and being forced to be uncomfortable for a bit.  For what I’m trying to accomplish with this program, there’s no sense is starting over now, just as it’s getting good.

I’m also probably not going to make those brownies.  I just don’t think I can handle having them around, unsupervised.  My boyfriend is coming on Tuesday…maybe I’ll make them then.  If he’s here, I’ll be less inclined to snack while he’s here to witness it.

Dinner: 8:30 pm, Tuna salad, right out of the container.  I didn’t think I would eat dinner, but I finally got hungry around 8:30.  I had made this tuna salad earlier, and it totally hit the spot.  I think I’m going to need to make more this week.  It had the protein from the chicken, the sweetness from the apple, and a bit of crunch from the walnuts.  It was exactly what I needed.  No pic, because seriously…it was right out of the Tupperware and I was not in a picture mood.

Something else fueling my frustration…I’m not observing any of the ‘good stuff’ that usually happens on Whole30.  My  pants still fit the same, my sleep is actually a little worse, my tummy has some issues and I’m having some scale/calorie-counting withdrawal.  I feel out-of-control, I think that sums it up.  I haven’t counted a calorie in nine days, or stepped on the scale, and it’s bothering me.

I clearly have some stuff to work through.

Day 8: I’m not fixed yet

I think I’m at the point now where it’s going to get really hard.  This is the time in previous endeavors where I would normally think, “I got this, I don’t need to strictly finish all 30 days, I understand and have demonstrated that I can implement the concepts, so that little sugar cookie over there won’t hurt me”.

I’m starting to understand that this is the point where the work really begins.  The first week I’m coasting on adreneline and the ‘newnesss’ of the program.  Because of that, it’s not as hard to face down some of the demons I really need to address during this program.  Like, craving sugar.  Or, eating for emotional reasons.  (those are kind of the same thing)

To be fair, my diet pre-Whole30 wasn’t horrible.  I eat well, compared to the average Joe (and even perhaps the average triathlete).  I don’t need to do Whole30 for health reasons, because I’m healthy.  I need to do this program because I have some bad habits that I need to understand and manage more effectively.  If I emerge on the flip side with an understanding of what’s going on in my brain when I crave sugar or goodies and how to manage it, then these 30 days will have been a success.  The answer to that question, at least the way I’m thinking now, is that I need to stay focused on what I’m trying to accomplish over the long-term and be able to weigh the value of the short-term (the cookie) versus the long-term reward (kick ass triathlete).  While the impact of the individual sugar cookie, physically speaking, is minimal, the real impact is that it enables the crutch I’ve become used to and dependant on, and that overall is holding me back. The commitment of the 30 days helps me focus. It’s short, digestible. I’ll worry about what comes after, later.

I’m going to re-do some of the meals I’ve been having.  I think I need to focus less on carbs and veggies and more on healthy fats.  I should be able to go between meals without snacking, and that’s not happening yet.  I’m going to start eating avocados like nobody’s business, in hopes that helps.  I should probably eat more seafood, too.

Workout: 9 am, 2 hard boiled eggs pre-run (hungry from the early dinner last night!), 45′ run, 1/2 sweet potato wrapped in two slices of turkey post-run.

Breakfast:  11 am, 3 eggs scrambled in 1 tsp ghee (probably could have used more) with spinach, pulled pork, 1/2 avocado.  I’m breaking the mold!

Did a bunch of shopping after breakfast.  A miracle happened at Kohls.  I had to return some stuff I bought for my boyfriend, so I was anticipating waiting in line for about 20 minutes, and then not having a smooth return process (even though I had the receipts).  It was the exact opposite!  No line, so I went right to the counter, and the whole thing took less than three minutes.  It took longer to park and walk in than it did to return the stuff.  Win.

I had an apple on my way back from Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods, and my stomach started to get a little upset.  I’m not sure why.  I’m wondering if it’s because I had more fat and not enough carbs after my run?  I’m secretly wondering if it was the pork.  Anyway, I didn’t get hungry until about 3:30.  I wonder if that was also because I had more fat with breakfast than I normally do?

Lunch: 4pm, last of the cauliflower soup with green onions and pulled pork.  The soup is gone, at last, at last!  Good thing because I have some minestone going in the crockpot now. 🙂

Dinner: 7:30, leftover meatballs
Nothing exciting, almost done with the leftover meatballs. Maybe I’ll finish them tomorrow for breakfast.

I’ve been watching The New Girl on Netflix for the past few days. I’m addicted. I’m halfway through season 2. I love finding new shows to watch. It’s so much more fun to binge watch instead of hanging through week after week.

Day 7: The Holiday Work Party

Today’s the day: Bowling Holiday Work Party.  Yikes.  I think I’ll be ok.  I usually can do ok, eating-wise, in public situations like this, as there are people watching (judging, says my cynical self), so my willpower can stay high.  (my issues are more when I’m alone and no one is around!).  I’m more concerned about the bowling part.  I’m not a good bowler, and I’m not crazy about the shoes for a number of reasons.  First, the ‘are they clean’ thing and second, I have big feet so I always end up in men’s shoes.  I don’t care what anyone says – you can tell they are mens shoes.  I am also a socially awkward penguin and not a fan of forced socialization or small talk.  Perhaps I should view this as an exercise is letting go of my insecurities and being more in the moment.

socially awkaward penguin

In other news, I need to start scouring Pintrest and the Interwebs for recipes to make this week, and start putting together a game plan for Christmas week at my parents house.  The Kindle version of the Well Fed cookbook  was on sale for $1.99 yesterday, so I bought that and found a few things I might try.

I threw the raisins out.  They are destructive to my efforts.  I can’t have ‘finger food’ around because my stop button is broken.  I just keep diving in for handful after handful.  It’s not productive and reinforces bad habits.  I’m not eating because I’m hungry, I’m eating because it’s something to do while watching TV, cooking, reading, etc.  No more finger food for the next 23 days.

I’m not doing food pics today because it’s all repeats.  Nothing exciting.  I need to get something new in rotation because I might be getting a little bored with some leftovers.

Breakfast: 7 am, 3 eggs, kielbasa sausage, zucchini (the usual!)  I am such a creature of habit, which is why it’ so hard for me to break bad habits, and to recognize which ones really are bad.

The party: 11:30 am – 2 pm.  A few carrots, celery, tomatoes, some pulled pork and grilled chicken.  Here’s a life lesson for you:  It’s probably best to not eat chicken from a bowling alley.  It did not sit well with my tummy.  My salad idea fell apart, and I actually had a weak moment.  I got hungry around 10, so I went downstairs and bought a packet of trail mix.  It was bad on two counts: a) my habit of picking at a bag of food until it’s gone, and b) I know it had all sorts of bad stuff on it.  I need to be be more prepared!  I had a hard boiled egg, but it was in the car.  I was so hungry that I knew it wouldn’t last for me, either.  I plowed through the trail mix, so by the time I got to the party I wasn’t as hungry as I was earlier.

It was interesting, it wasn’t that hard to stay away from the food at the party.  It kind of looked gross, what with being in a bowling alley, and my group was on the other side of the room from where the food was set-up, so it was fairly effortless to stay away.  The hard part came after I was leaving and mentally getting ready for the weekend.  This is normally when I’d not worry about dinner and stop and pick something up (a sub, pizza, or something likewise) and perhaps even a bottle of wine to tide me over for the few days.

The party itself was actually fun, too.  I get myself so worked up about these things, I need to just relax.  We bowled a couple games (I did 112 on one and 101 on another).  Bowling is hard!  It really does take some skill and coordination to do well at it.  But, not for me.  I’m not a bowler for the same reason I’m not a golfer – too frustrating, and you stay still for too long.

On my way home, it started to sink in just how hard it’s going to be during Christmas to stay away from the goodies.  I called my parents and my mom was making Christmas cookies.  She started describing them and I could just picture them and the display on Christmas Eve.  Then I started thinking more – my sister’s probably going to want to drink a night or two over break.  That’s when it dawned on me just how much strength and willpower I’m going to need over the next few weeks.  I know in my brain that what I’m doing is right, but I can see how falling back into old habits will be so easy to do.  This weekend I normally am baking tons and tons of Christmas cookies, drinking a lot of wine and watching Christmas movies.  This weekend, I’ll have a normalish weekend, but I’ll still watch the Christmas movies.  Sober.

Early dinner: 4:30 pm, more cabbage soup with kielbasa and sauteed mushrooms.  I’ll probably have something small later tonight, but I was starving.  I only had that little bit of pulled pork and the awful chicken for lunch, so I figured I could eat a little early.

Day 6: Rest Day

Ahhhh…today is a rest day.  I know my legs were jacked from yesterday, so I’m going to take today off (except for probably some yoga and core work this evening).  Plus, it’s about 15 degrees outside, so it’s fine with me not taking my chances in the dark on the ice-laden roads of Newark.  (I know, I could do the treadmill…I kind of hate the treadmill.  It has it’s place, but a casual foundation run isn’t it.)

I’ve been thinking a lot about my training schedule for the next two months.  I’m going to do two 70.3’s this year, Syracuse and hopefully, Princeton, with a handful of local running and tri races sprinkled in between.  I’m trying to figure out where I should focus.  Obviously, some basic base building, but I think I need to get into the weight room a little bit.  Nothing crazy; you will not catch me clean and jerking 100s of pounds, but I should do some squats, deadlifts, chest and shoulder presses and some really targeted core work.  I’ll start with it the week between Christmas and New  Years (my favorite week of the year because work is closed!) as well as find my way back to the pool again.  I want to be able to average about 11-12 hours/week by the end of February.  (in the beginning of March I’m going to see my aunt and uncle in Napa for a week, so it’s a natural transition time).

I get very worried about adding intensity, particularly to the run (the bike and swim are fine with intensity).  I tend to get injured really easily, usually in the form of hamstring or calf pulls), whenever I incorporate speed training, like tempo or intervals, into my running.  I think I’ll keep doing basic foundation runs for January, while concurrently working on my strength in the gym.  In February, I’ll start doing some shorter intervals/fartlek runs and see how I respond.

My big thing with training is being consistent.  I’m really great at pulling a big weekend, but then I’m toast for the rest of the week.  That’s part of the reason why I think it’s so important to work through the Whole30, because I think the nutrition lessons I learn as part of it will support better recovery and stabilize “my stuff” (metabolism, hormones, all that fun stuff) so it’s easier for me to be consistent.  I don’t want the tiredness, crankiness and mood swings => those all lead to missed workouts.

In case you were wondering about one of the men in my life, here he is, in all his 14-year-old, snowy glory.  Love him to death!!  He’s such an old man, and he’s always been like that.  He’s the dog version of Walter Matthau in Grumpy Old Men.

Snowy Doc

Breakfast:  7 am, three eggs, sausage patty (last ones!), zucchini

Breakfast 12/12

This morning was busy with meetings, so I didn’t sit down at my desk until around 11:45.  I was so hungry.  I plowed through some cashews like nobody’s business.

Lunch:  12:30, no picture :(.  Ate out at Freddys and had a chopped salad with grilled chicken, tomatoes, pecans, cucumbers, broccoli and a few other things.  The dressing was this awesome cilantro lime dressing, which I’m not 100% sure is complaint, but it’s delicious.  Had lunch with the guys, so I chose this which is mostly good.  Although…Randy’s buffalo chicken sandwich and fries did look good, too.

The afternoon went by pretty quickly.  Tomorrow is our office holiday party; we’re going bowling!  I haven’t bowled in forever.  I’m sure I will not be good.  But, neither will anyone else.  There’s supposed to be “Bowling Fare Food”, which does not sound at all Whole30 compliant, so I’m going to have to both improvise and prepare.  I think I might just do an early lunch.  I made a salad for today that I didn’t eat, so I think I’m going to bring that and eat it on the drive over.  (the party starts at 11 am).  By the time I get there, I should be full enough so I can bypass the bad stuff, and then finish up when I get out.  After the party, we get the rest of the day off.  Score!!

Maybe I should start my Christmas shopping…

I had some carrots and almond butter around 3:30, and then some raisins when I got home from work.  I need to get rid of the raisins.  They’re like crack to me – I can’t eat just one.  I should have had a hard boiled egg instead.

Dinner:  6:30 pm, Cauliflower soup, kielbasa sausage and sauteed mushrooms (same thing as Tuesday so I’m recycling the pic because today it didn’t look nearly as pretty).

Dinner 12/11

Still good the second time around.

I’m tired tonight.  I couldn’t fall asleep last night, so I’m hoping to get to bed a bit earlier tonight.  I think it’s a good night to watch a few New Girl episodes and hit the hay.  Nothing too exciting today, but I know it’s going to be a busy weekend coming up.  Eric is coming in next week so we can do our little holiday thing.  I need to clean the bathrooms, grocery shop, give Doccie a bath, Christmas shop, meal plan, cook food and get in my workouts.  And, it’s supposed to be bad weather.  Whatevs.  One more week and then a whole week and a half OFF!!  SOOO excited!!

Day 5: Hump Day Test

Today is Wednesday.  Wednesday is the day everything I committed to over the weekend generally goes to the toilet.  I go out for lunch (because I’ve ate in all week – I deserve a treat!), I don’t do my workout, I get lazy at home and start to focus on the weekend ahead (when I’ll reinvest myself again).  I am so determined not to let Hump Day break me.  I won’t let it.


Breakfast: 7:10 am, 3 eggs, sausage patty, 1/2 avocado, one zucchini

Breakfast 12/11

Good breakfast.  Boyfriend called during it so I couldn’t enjoy it as much as I’d like, but it was nice to talk to the boyfriend as well.  Trade-offs. 🙂

Lunch: 12:15 pm, leftover meatballs and marinara sauce, steamed zucchini.  Snacks of cashews about an hour before that.

Lunch 12/11

So…bad idea to eat a Be Kind bar this afternoon.  I don’t think I had enoug for lunch because I was starving by around 3:30.  I had some carrots and almond butter, but it wasn’t enough.   I went downstairs and got a coffee (that was horrible) and a BeKind bar.  Almost immediately after eating it I got a throbbing headache and my tummy started feeling ‘off’.  I know it was a reaction to whatever was in that bar.  I know it’s probably not completely Whole30 compliant, but I was trying not to read too closely (ignorance is not bliss).  I learned my lesson…never again.

I wanted to get on the bike for an hour or so tonight, and when I got home I felt good so I didn’t eat a hard boiled egg before I got on.  I knew I’d be a little shaky on the bike because it was the third night in a row for it, but about 20′ into it I started to get lightheaded.  I pulled the plug and proceeded to eat two bananas, a Lara Bar and a bunch of raisins.

Next time, need to do better.  Always eat my pre-workout and post-workout meals.  Gotta do it.

Dinner:  7:15 pm, leftover coconut crusted chicken, brussel sprouts and apple mix, 1/2 yam and 1/4 avocado.

Dinner 12/11

Leftover night!!  Love it.  No cooking!  Not that I don’t like cooking, but I enjoy spending time doing things other than cooking sometimes.  Everything was good the second time around.

I survived Hump Day!!!  I didn’t give into any temptation (aside from that stupid BeKind bar), I started my workout even though I didn’t want to and I finished the day off good.   So, SO proud of myself.  Major hurdle overcome.

I love the Sing-off.  Seriously.  It’s such a fun show.  How can you not have fun watching those performances?  High energy, lots of talent.  Love it.

Day 4: Running

Today is my first run in this Whole30.  Running, as much as I love it and I love the experience, stresses me unlike any of the other sports.  It gets my heart rate up and points out just how bad my core strength is.  These past few months have been very frustrating.  Over the past 6-7 years, my runs generally average between and 8:30-8:50 pace for the most part.  Sometimes quicker, but rarely have I had a run where the average pace was over 9’/mile.  These past few months, they have all been in the 9’/mile pace range.  I am so slow!!  I don’t know where it went, but it’s been a very humbling experience, to say the least.

However, it hasn’t completely been just because I’m out of shape or a fatty.   I get really bad seasonal allergies and my allergy doc (who is also an Ironman athlete) recommended putting as little stress on my body as possible during the bad seasons.  In the past, I would do my normal workouts at normal intensity, and then five days later I wind up with a sinus infection and migraine.  Last fall, I think I had a chronic sinus infection from October through mid-December.  Headaches every day, trouble concentrating, really tired and lethargic.  This was a lot of the reason I wanted to clean-up my diet this year.  So…per my doctor’s recommendation (his voice of reason), I have been trying to go slower and not get my HR up as high.

My worry is that when I’m running ‘slower’, I’m not actually sure I could go much faster if I wanted to!  It’s really frustrating.  A year and a half ago I ran a 1:42 half marathon (over a hilly course!).  It was totally the highlight of my athletic career to-date.  I was so proud of that.  I had been chasing 1:45 for awhile, and to crush it, well – I was thrilled.  But after that, everything went to crap.  This year, I’m trying to get back to where I was in March 2012.  I was bring really consistent with my training, which I know was why I had the success.  My issue now is that my body is in a different place than it was then, so there are things I have to be more cautious of if I want to have consistent training, steadily increasing volume.

Anyhoo, I’m sure I’ll have more to say on this topic later.  It’s something I’ve been struggling with for the past couple of months.  It’s very cathartic to write about it and get some of the stuff jumbling around in my head out.

Pre-workout: Large hard boiled egg
Workout:  45′ minute run at moderate intensity 
(HR monitor went to crap and wasn’t reading correctly)
Post-workout:  2 kiwi, 3 ounces of applegate farms turkey

Before the storm!

My street before 12/11 storm

Breakfast: 7:15 am, 3 eggs, roasted butternut squash, sausage patty, 1/2 yam.

Breakfast 12/11

If it’s not broken, don’t fix it!  I’ll have to come up with a new veggie side tomorrow, because I’m out of squash.  My veggie box is being delivered today (hopefully…I haven’t heard otherwise), so there will be some stuff in there I can dig into.

Lunch: 12:30pm, Sweet Potato Basil soup with pulled pork, leftover brussel sprouts with apples

Lunch 12/11

So.  Much.  Food.  So yummy.  Since I’ve been working at the dining room table all day, I switched things up and moved to the living room for lunch.  In dealing with leftovers, I decided I’m not going to eat the same main meal two days in a row.  It gets me burned out on the food which makes me not want it, which then makes me get off track.  I’m loving experimenting with my pulled pork, though.  That’s what’s nice about it – it’s very versatile.  I can put it in salads, in soups, over veggies or even on its own.  I can eat it all week but not have it the same way twice.

Since I’ve been working at home today I noticed that I’m not as hungry as I normally get during the day.  I think it’s the stress of sitting in one place for so long.  I hate sitting in a chair all day.  At work, I get hungry around 9:45 or 10, and today I didn’t feel like snacking until 11 (I had some cashews then).

I think the key to a good meal is having a colorful plate.  Not the actual plate, but the food on the plate.  You eat with your eyes first.

Workout #2: Bonus Bike
I didn’t actually have this planned, but since I had time I went ahead and hopped on the trainer for a bit.  Not horrible, but I could tell it was harder today than yesterday.  Cumulative fatigue.  I had a handful (or two) of raisins after the workout.

Dinner:  Roasted Cauliflower Soup, kielbasa sausage and mushrooms

Dinner 12/11

I wasn’t that hungry after the huge lunch, so I didn’t have dinner until late.  It was better than anticipated.  I did the sausages in a pan and then sauted the mushrooms in the sausage juice.  Very tasty.  I diced up some green onions to put on top as ‘garnish’ (because I’m fancy like that).  I think tonight is going to be an early bed night, I’m pooped.  Long day and two tougher workouts.  I’m really proud of myself for staying good so far!!